My head is burning up
And my thoughts are bleeding out
I’m sitting here in silence
Just trying not to shout.
I’m dizzy and kind of tired
Trying to stand up straight
I want to change it all around
But I don’t want to wait.
How long have I been standing here
Just staring in the mirror?
Unable to believe that staying here
Will make things a little clearer.
So I’ll rub my eyes and lay back down
Just pass it off as lazy
Don’t let anyone in reality know
That I’m going fucking crazy.
Must.. Call… Insurance… Today… Ughhh. I don’t want to do this, but I feel like I’m getting worse… I wish I could just shut everything off… Been trying to make changes. Drew up a diet plan which I will hopefully start Monday and doing the 30 day squat challenge with my mum. Hopefully that’ll at least start me on the right track… Sigh…
Well that’s something that bothers me much more than it should.
I have never thought about it in this context
that’s actually really, really creepy.
I once pointed this out to my mother and she just stared at me, in stunned silence for ages.
There will always be a girl who is less sober, less secure, with less friends walking in a darker part of town. I want her safe just as much as I want me safe.
Way to put the responsibility on the victim to ~not get raped~ *angry moth noises*
Feeling kind of bummed out today. Starting to miss my old self. I feel like since I’ve started working at Tully’s my life force has just been constantly draining… a combination of that and not seeing certain friends enough.. sigh…